* what's past are forever left behind as memories somewhere in my heart...

Friday, June 02, 2006

holiday's ringing at my ears! hooray! having a class chalet next monday, few of us thought that it might turn out to be some kinda secondary school camp or NS camp. to prevent so, we're gotta shut ourselves off from those and be in our own world where possible. for the past 7 weeks of school term, sooo many things had happened. people changed. some for the better, some for the worse. those year 1 friends are no longer the same anymore. everyone changes with time, it just depend how good/bad you'd changed =)

BD presentation just ended today. seriously, i dont think i'd put in much effort at all, except for the PPT and the government rules part. my members love me so much that they had only give me such a pathetic job. c'mon man! who wont love it when they dont need to work that hard for project? but my sense of guilt had totally changed to frustrations + digusts. yes, it's you guys who made me feel this way. have you ever have any idea how miserable i was while doing that PPT for BD? no, you'll never. if you do, you'll never change the template just for the excuse that the alignment is different. i sacrified my hours of beauty sleep and risk my shortsighted degrees (can only work in the dark since joyce's sleeping besides me) just because you guys trust me in this task. you'd insulted me and betrayed this trust of mine in you guys for BD after what you'd done to me this noon. you should've understand my effort before making any changes. it's too late to say anything now. cause you guys had shown your disbelief in me. so what if you've done a lot for the research and all? if we have a person short, we wouldnt have done well in the PPT this noon. and you can jolly well admit that Mr Ben Cho moderated us for such high mark for part of the sake of me too. ingrates.

what do ya mean by "no marketing concept"? i look up to you as a fun and loving lecturer. someone who represents marketing as an interesting area to study. but, your actions had disgusted me. by writing such words on my test paper which i should be grateful to you that you just passed me to make me look good, you had insulted me in and out. you shall earn less than 5% of respect from me on the day you insulted me onwards. you wont care, i know. but i dont care either. to think that i'm getting all these shit things from you after spending the most efforts in this module, i am going to prove you that you're not fit to be a marketing lecturer and i will be the best marketing student.

who are you to scold me? who are you to criticise my friends/colleagues? i dont go to work to listen to all your bullshit k. if you're under so much pressure, that's your own blardy business. none of mine. stop trying to act pathetic after making mistakes all the time. stop trying to act big when you are just a small fry who knows only bootlicking. just admit that you suck in management skill. i can give you Mr David Cheong's number so you could contact him for some management teachings. be thankful that i'm still nice to you. soon, i'll climb on top of you and step you like rubbish. idiot.

fat ass. stop acting so knowledgable or funny can. wise person need not show it all out. people will naturally know if you're really that good. you aint funny at all. you suck at telling jokes or being lame. your face making me puke too. i just cant tolerate you anymore. i'm trying to be nice with you yet you dont appreciate. fine. you'll get karma. dont ever let me hear you saying those nasty words on people whom i know, especially my family members. and stop trying to act smart, fat ass. pui pui pui.

it's ok if you dont accept my good intentions on providing those advices to you. one day you'll regret what you'd chosen. and please be thankful that you're still be able to spend time with your loved ones or still be able to sense their presence, for i cant even spend as much time as possible with my dad or be there for him till his last journey. just get contented with life. live simple.

-YayA- screamed at papaya 00:28!