* what's past are forever left behind as memories somewhere in my heart...

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

it's been decades ever since i last blogged la. with questionings of "why didnt you blog about your birthday present?" "why didnt you blog for so long?" blah blah blah... not that i dont want, just that...

my internet was cut off and i only knew what'd happened after 1 week's of internet-less. my mum blamed on me, thinking that i spent the $60 that she passed me to foot the bill. that flared me up, causing me to throw the receipt on her as a proof. why would i want to keep that $60 for when it aint enough for even 1 of my insurance premium? aRgh!!! next, she blamed on starhub for sending her irrelevant bill. i was on top of my anger to bother with her this time. 1 week later then i found out about the cutting off thingy was because of my mum being so sotong that she thought the bill was fast-forwarded (as in starhub wanted her to pay in advance). wth. just now, because of her sotong-ness, or perhaps it's her illness caused her to be so, she made me embarrassed yet again with the starhub operator. the service was connected back but i cant go online! so... after 10 minutes of trying-to-think-of-a-solution to satisfy customers' needs (bullshit), i found out that it's merely the wire not plunged into my computer. to think that my mum still has the cheeks to laugh out so loud when she's the one who asked my brother to pull it off 2 days ago. aRgh!!!

ask me how's my cny and i'll tell you, i feel nothing. it's just like a normal day. alot people has grown up, more mature-thinking (as if) and more social life. so more people wont go house-visiting with their parents anymore or stay more than 2 hours in a house. most people go around with 2 mandarins just for the sake of ang baos (so fake la) and after 1st day, they'll disappear to nowhere. my cousins and i can even fall asleep in my ah ma's house la, for goodness' sake. caught a heavy flu on 3rd day of cny, had to stay at home. mum lost voice (more peace, yeah!) yet she went to her siblings' houses yesterday. we debated on the house-visiting cases since we're both sick.

me: i didnt go cause i was sick what. cant even walk normally, so why go there and suffer? moreover, i'm just a small fry in the family. nobody will notice.
mum: you cant put it in such way one! it's muture respect and...
me: (before she could finish) bullshit la. you think they care meh. they dont even give face la. look at kor's birthday celebration and you'll know le.
mum: (gave me a quite-true face) that's why XXX didnt come our house this year. maybe she thinks that she didnt come that time so she dont dare to turn up during cny.
me: haizzz...

my mum and aunties even had discussion about this particular cousin of mine who only visits ah ma's place (that's for sure for everyone) and my 2 aunts' houses who are the richest of all elders. they claimed that she loves only rich people. i... lolx.

i dont give it a damn. neither do i want to care so much. i'd told mum that i'll start to invite people more than a month before my 21st birthday. if they dont turn up with excuses like "sorry, i've got a meetup with other friends" or "sorry, i got to work", forget about inviting me to your anything in the future k? i gave you reasonable notification and since i meant nothing to you even as relatives, just shooo off. your ang bao aint that big enough for me to be sad about. what kinda relatives i have. hMph!

i know this is so long ago thingy, but still, i gotta thank the followings for making my 19th birthday a better ones compared to the past...

i'd received...
1) a gigantic green dreamcatcher that's hanging at my window currently.
2) 1 beautifully wrapped rose.
3) a da vinci code book which wrapped with cute guys' posters heh hehs. together with a movie postcard that stated "opens in 13january".
4) a 50ml "envy me" perfume. (pauline and jean gave me a card on top of that, so sweet!)
5) full set of LOTR storybooks. with the hobbit too lolx.
6) a 100ml "glow" perfume. awwww~
7) a greeny shawl. wahahhas.
8) a jacket and a pouch. both green. i felt so greeny now. hehs.
9) a bottle of "mirage" perfume.
10) another bouquet of flowers (which i'll post up the picture later). with "a walk to remeber" OST and LOTR OST. =)
11) a treat of waterfall and long island tea (lucky the bar's closed).
12) a mini musical box.
13) a nike greeny shoes bag with a pair of greeny earrings which i love lots.
together with the above, there's blessings from beloving friends and family through SMS and calls and a surprisingly mail posted card right to my doorstep. and i'm so blessed with friends who actually had celebration and dinner with me, and even supper till the next morning. yaya's no longer lonely after 18 years old. thanks all. appreciating with my heart...

-YayA- screamed at papaya 21:04!