* what's past are forever left behind as memories somewhere in my heart...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

life's short. you wont know when you'll be departing this world. so, live llife to the fullest each day. try not to think too much about him, joel, though i know you miss him loads and you've got regrets and words for him. cause this is life. just keep him in your heart and wish him all the best in the other world. take cares.

joel's dear friend, who's been acting like his elder brother always, had just left this world on last saturday. all thanks to an accident, which was so near my house. influenced by him, the feelings of how i'd felt before for dad came back. this morning when i was on my way to school, nearly shed tears in the train. was listening to fish leong's "fly away". before i knew, i was deeply in thoughts with just a man in my mind - my beloved dad. i miss him loads, somehow.

haiz~ one weekend can really have lots of happenings. joyce was "buried" with tears the moment i stepped in the classroom. what happened? not very sure. according to her, it was some bad things happened in her office. i supposed those happenings had got nothing to do with her. she's just trying to claim all the blame. silly gal. so what if you're angelic to others, yet others are so devil-ise to ya, har?! you're just trying to let others take more advantage on you, gal! yar you really do made a wrong move in confiding in cash rather than jackie. i understand your moves, but will jackie be so? dont be silly anymore le gal! how can you keep convincing yourself that jackie aint angry with what you did? i can guarantee you 100% that he IS!!! if not, he wont be calling you at night again, to tell ya that he's rather affected that you rather confined in cash to him. gonna say "NO" or "you dont understand much" to me again?

i hate people telling me "no, it's because you dont understand what's going on". to hell you go if you say that to me before explaining or telling me what's going on beforehand. i meant it, hardly.

and yar. what's wrong with jackie? what did he actually did to the QUEENZ gang's nerves that all are talking bad about him everywhere? hahas. it started long ago, the first time when joyce told us about him. in our impression, he's rich and capable. will take care of joyce yet sounds a bit cunning. that stage we were still in neutral stage. then things worsen. and they broke off. still remembered clearly of how joyce got hurt by this jerk and how she scolded him in front of us. but look at what happened now? she went back to him stupidly... (aRgh! throw our faces! hahas) for why do we dislike him that much, hahas! ask him what kind of attitude he gave last wednesday! sorry! he might not know. cause he aint got a mirror in front of him. saw jas and money blogs? i agreed totally with what they typed man~!

to money: yeah he's really a disappointment *puking now*
to jas: he's really hopeless!

he came to meet us last wednesday at newsroom. joyce was drunk by then. she didnt tell him she went clubbing with us, but she called him up. all because she missed him loads and wanted to be in his arms sooo much at that time. here he arrived. money invited him into newsroom to join us.

jerk: "i dont go to these kind of places"
money: "what the..." (in thoughts)
joyce: explained - "he said cause last night he went to these places till he's sianz le, and he's bad mood cause something happened in the office just now, so he dont feel like going in. and he's already angry with me for getting drunk."

joyce... if you know he'll be like this, why bother to ask him to come then? spoilt mood.

after that, dont know why wor, he ended up sitting opposite us in newsroom, with that kind of expression on his face that once you see it, either you feel like bashing him up or got so damn irritated. something's really wrong with his face! he thinks he's cool, sitting down there, waiting for us to break the ice and all. worst of all, he's not giving joyce face at all! if he's really in a lousy mood, there's still no need to put on such attitude in front of us. yeah i know. we're all bitches. brought your girlfriend to pubs and made her drunk. fark la. i dont care what mood you're in, you've got no rights at all to spoil our mood. bryan's angry with jas for getting drunk too. but did he show it all out? NO! he did it after jas got sober. fark off la jackie~

that day me, money and jas are wondering about something... hmm... thought joyce told us before that jackie's rich - has got his own successful business and a car. but err... are all these just an illusion of joyce's or a beautiful lie of jackie's, huh?!

anyway, while i was bathing, suddenly got a conclusion of why our initial impression of him is being rich and capable - rich in his knowledge of cheating innocent gals; capable in making use of this technique on innocent gals successfully. ha... ha... ha...

joyce, i dont care if you'll hate me or what after all these comments on jackie (should have gotten used to it le ba hahas)... just go ahead and keep throwing yourself to him, and treat him like your guardian angel k?... time will tell ya all... may you be blessed~

why are my friends all so problematic nowadays? are your problems unslovable or you're just avoiding the reality?! wake up, dears! especially you, manda and money. never mind. waste my time in typing their problems out anyway. and yar. a whole load of strength-wastage in typing joyce's out too cause she listens only to jackie now.

hahas chatted with frances yesterday. not bad. she's doing super fine over there in US. got a boyfriend for 5months yet i knew it just yesterday. they had sex? nope. she claimed they're conservative types and will only wait till after marriage. hahas. unbelievable ba (cause they're in US wor).

saw jiarou today again. it's fate! hahas been bumping into her almost twice a week. cool. she's actually frances' childhood friend and frances' my primary friend. me+frances=good friends jiarou+frances=good friends... so we can actually conclude that me+jiarou also = good friends! lolx

by the way hor, i've been wearing the bracelet(everyday hor! heh) that qi-jie gave me when we first met up after so many donkey years of friendship. hahas. got to announce this, or else he'll say i didnt wear it again =p

aRgh~!!! exam's coming!!! just saw the timetable today! gonna be stressed up again! but thinking that holiday's coming soon.... heh heh!!!

-YayA- screamed at papaya 00:11!