* what's past are forever left behind as memories somewhere in my heart...

Thursday, March 24, 2005

just finished watching the first three episodes of "the outsider" (yeah man jiahui! i'd finally started watching it! hahas). first disc in... i'm having doubts of whether to continuing this show not. second disc in... tears flowing out le~ cant wait to watch the third one, that's why ended up so late le still not in lala land yet. this show, hmm, cannot say that it's super duper nice (as what many of my friends had claimed it to be) yet. but, it did leave me pondering...

mum always says to me, that one must be "men dang hui dui". good family background with the goods. normal+average ones, be so too. if you're just a plain jane, never think of crossing the line to be a princess. last time, i used to think that this theory of mum's is totally absurd. but when you really gotten into that kinda situation, things might not be the same anymore.

one day, if you were to fall in love with someone whose family background is totally opposite of yours, will you still want to carry on this relationship? will you not gonna care about the obstacles that you two will be facing together? or will you just give it up?

if i'm still the old me, i'll choose the initial one. but now, more towards latter. after that 5 years of struggling, i'm tired. i'm really tired le. sometimes, no matter how hard you tried, when things are meant to be in this way, it'll not be changed at all.

jac told me this once: "the guys around you are all rich, and possess most of the good prospects of what girls always wish for as their life partners". my reply: "but they'll never cross the line of friendship". perhaps this is good. never think of having a good life that soon. tang lao shi told me once: "you'll only get richer in your middle part of your life". i totally believe and cant agree more. dont claim that i'd think too much or what. this is too "good" to be true le. no matter how much i work and slave, financial will still occur. no matter how hard i tried to save, there'll always have some happenings that required me to fork out my savings. then, i was forced to buy a 25years saving insurance by mama. i bought another one secretly. that means i've got 2 now (shhh! dont leak out please! mama dont know about that!) after some calculation, i'll only receive that sum of savings at the age of 42. hahas. middle life. see that?!

sometimes, your life is just as fixed. it's what people called "fate".

when i was at my dad's funeral, someone did told me this: "dont be sad even if your dad had left you. his leaving will only mean giving another guy a chance to replace your dad, who showered you so much love before." that time, that friend of mine claimed that "replacement" as to be bank. hahas. yes he did replace. but not totally. but i'm contented enough, to just have this wonderful buddy in my life. i'm still touched by that sentence of his on the day we became buddy.

"to me, you can only have one real buddy in your whole lifetime."

i'm blessed. blessed with what i have now. are you blessed? dont worry if you're not! we can share mine together ^-^

*switched channel*

A and B. both have lots of similarities. one, landed on the earth on the same day, month and year. two, as tall. three, as skinny. four, resembles each other. five, has the same pattern in striking a conversation with you. six, throw the same question to you at the same time. seven, as cheeky. eight, love to change topics. nine, money seems nothing yet is something to them. ten, always "bully" me. eleven, love not to straighten out their thoughts. twelve, either dont reply your questions asked or give a huge chunk of replies to you and left you blurred. the list just goes on and on...

jas and joyce think they're long-lost twins. hahas. jas asked me to have their DNA tested. funny. but it's really freaky to have meet two persons who's so alike. amazing.

*channel switched*

just now had a bet with wen. if i sell more than 15 copies today, he'll treat me lunch, anything. if i lost, i'll treat him the most well-known chicken rice in my school. no doubt, he won. i managed to sell 7 only. hahas. not gotta feel bad cause i only worked half day - 6 hours. and it's a weekday. hahas. never mind, this meal is worth treating, cause the food is real great! just got back from his blog. hahas. this is funny. very funny. cant stop shouting out "huh" and laughing at the same time. he tagged in his own blog saying "muahaha the jie not ur admirer meh!" *rolling on the floor*

*tuning channel*

sorry! no channel found! got to knock off le. later got to work again cause ivy's sick, switching shift with her. poor girl. lucky got yaya, brought her to get this super incredibly good cough syrup wahhahahas~!

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-YayA- screamed at papaya 03:18!