* what's past are forever left behind as memories somewhere in my heart...

Sunday, March 27, 2005

ooo~!!! just gotten back from my daughter's, huiyin, birthday celebration!!! ^-^ though it's a short and very early(her actual's on 4thapril) celebration, we all still enjoyed it hahas. we went cartel for dinner as planned by me and nu er 2 months ago lolx. ooo!!! tell ya what?! bought this special flower for my nu er! it's actually forget-me-not with the holland seeds nicely wrapped together heez. think she'll be uploading the picture of the flower in her friendster soon. ooo! why is it special?! cause it's dried de yet it's so beautiful. need quite some time to "produce" this too de wor heez. took quite a few photos today hahas. even took the shuai shuai jason when he's playing pool hahas. he's really cool when doing the "aiming" on pool table. we always joked with him

"jason, you look really shuai when playing pool. you'll have girls queueing up from here till your house lor. but only when playing pool la hor, hahas."

talking about him ar! stay so near me, but when didnt even ask if wanna go home with him not when he wanna take cab. even said "bye" to me. win le lor. hahas. but in the end we also went home together la lolx. finally met my son-in-law, huiyin's boyfriend, today. a proper meeting i meant. just as i was thinking he's rather unfriendly, he started to chat loads with me. good timing my boy! hahas. can see he treats huiyin quite well. keep it up! dont hurt her like what sy did last time k?! if not mama will not let you off! hahahas

money called me this noon. sounded so depressed her. as if cried for 3days 3 nights. she chatted with me in msn just now. was in "tears". she was heartbroken over jas, who dont want her le. they're actually "lesmate" la. but... jas is too heartbroken to accept her now. she's super depressed over money of her doings. if it's me, i'll feel as if i'd just broken up with my boyfriend le. haiz~ tomorrow meeting them up... hopefully everything will get better.

hahas i think i'm really mad yesterday. imagining me to have cycled for whole 210minutes non-stop lolx. i cycled from my house to kovan, serangoon, serangoon north, ang mo kio, nyp... lolx. and i'm so unlucky! wanted to go tomato and nyp, but both was closed cause it's public holiday =( but bought back the new flavours of king's ice cream~! wahahhahas~!!! hao xin fu wor~! my newspaper dropped halfway on the road. told mum i cycled round the road just to pick it up and her eyes got SO BIG hahas. fun! will do this more often lolx. nearly bang onto the tree when trying to reply jas' sms lolx. might get knock down by cars if didnt control well enough hahas. was trying to rush home cause the sky's getting dark and ice cream's melting! wahahhahas~

yeah!!! shann's finally with her darling le~! got her piece of happiness too heez. soooo happy for her ^-^ heard about her conversation with her mum. hmm auntie, dont think this way. doesnt mean JC students are better. it just proves that they're better in studies. but what's happening outside, they might not be able to take it. i'm a poly student too. not siding for myself. i can get into JC if i want. so what? i chose my own path and i'm doing great! got to trust your own daughter's taste and all ;)

went joyce's house on thurday. spent the night watching zhang xue you's concert with her mum and jasmine till her daddy got home. ooo her parents' really great! knowledgable and joyce's so taken care of! i'm so envious! they've got so many types of honey at home! *yummy* and the vinegar!!! love them all man! not forgetting the mango cake and chinese tea! wow all are my favourite!!! hahaS!!! will get some next time, for mama too! thanks uncle anutie for your heart-warming treats! joyce, you really got a super good life!!! =)

sometimes, girls really dont really mean what they said. really. so be sensitive to them, and try to do something opposite as what they "request" hahas.

ooo nearly in tears when jie just went offline like that. i simply told him "jas told me if she's me, she wont chat with people who keep avoiding/changing topics de...she'll just ignore them lolx" so he replied "learn from her bah" and me "ok lor... then... err... bye~" and off he went after a "bye" to me... he can never imagine how shocked i was at that time. then i thought he's for real. and... tears welled up lolx. but he's just trying to restart his computer, dont know if it's real not =P

can anyone tell me how can one loves to avoid/change topic that much? sometimes it's just too much for one to take it... but it's still okay for me la lolx.

girls, know why i dont dare to admit it? yes i'm trying to run away from the reality. i dont dare. i cant. i dont have the courage to face my true feelings now. how much regretions i had now after everything's happened. how i wish i hadnt done anything on that night. how i wish... but it wont be the same now again. the feelings' different now. no sparks. no progress. no nothing at all. i know them all. dont encourage or persuade or reason out with me. no use. cause he's the only one who can give me the courage and confidence to face my feelings again...

all i wished for is his consistency of after-ing me and not giving me up... he can de, if he feels the same for me. i'd said le, if he's really true and sincere, i'll definitely give it a try.

*flower idiot*

disappointed. thought we had agreed to watch it together?! things always turn out bad. no, should say things only turn out bad when it's me who requesting for it. how much do you all love me as a friend? do you all really care about my feelings inside? have you really try hard to understand me more? whenever i reflect on the past, i'll start to cry. cry not because you're treating me bad. but because why are things like this. i dont wish to think this way. i dont want.

where are you now ade? why arent you contacting me anymore? who are you treating me as? just someone whom you can make use of? i dont wish to mention much. it'll only drag others down. i'm just feeling shuttered.

what a good day to start with, yet a bad day to end with...........

-YayA- screamed at papaya 01:34!